The Mokara Family
Narrated by Melina
Lately I have been thinking about my relationship with Matthew. We get along really well and I really like him, I even think I love him, but I've been wondering if it's all enough.
He's my best friend and we can talk about anything, and their definitely is attraction between is, so I really don't know why I'm wondering. We hang out at my place or at his.
But we hardly ever go out anymore just the 2 of us. Most of the time he asks Benny and Eleanora to come along when we go out. I love spending time with Ellie, but I would love to spend time with my boyfriend as well.
But the boys like playing arcade games, something Ellie and I don't like too much. So when we go out, we usually go to a place where Benny and Matthew can play arcade games.
We usually leave the boys to their games, and go dancing or do something else.
Matthew and I do have our good moments, moments when I hardly doubt our relationship. He's really looking forward to next year, when we will be in college and most likely will be living in the same dorm. But even during our good moments, I get second doubts when he talks like that.
I haven't talked about anybody about how I feel, not even Matthew. I don't want to burden anybody when I'm not sure about all of it myself.
Besides I might feel different when all the stress about school and getting into college is about of the way.
I've already got my acceptance letter from SVU, and I can't wait to finally start, but I still feel like I'm not ready yet, that I'm not prepared enough, so I keep working.
Mom keeps telling my I should try to enjoy life a little bit more, go out more, have fun. But I simply can't.
Sometimes I wish to be a child again, and have carefree weekends. Spend Saturdaymornings in my pajama's.
Going to the movies with mom and dad, just because they are home and want to spend the day with their kids.
And get annoyed by my parents because my mom is a terrible whisperer and talks to loud during the movie.
But the best part would be, ending Sundays at the White Castle having a burger and fries.
Notes:
- Melina's wants are all about studying and going to college, she harly ever rolls wants for anything else, let along Matthew, so this update was kind of inspired by her wants.
- As I said Melina didn't roll any wants for Matthew this round, so I figured she's doubting her relationship with Matthew, however I don't see her as the one to break up with some one by the first doubt, so I'm keeping them together for now. I'll wait and see how they'll do in college.
- I'm pretty terrible at including other family members in an update when I decided on a narrator. But Hans and Yin did take David and Sam to the movies on Sunday, and they did go to the White Castle (I love that lot) for dinner that day too. Since Melina is 17, I don't see her tag along with her parents and little bothers, she's only rolling study-wants anyway.
That was a very good update, I think you captured what could be going on in a teenager's mind at that stage very well!
ReplyDeleteIt would be something I would have thought at that age. Too young for the adult-stuff but wanting it so badly, and on the other hand too proud to go somewhere with your parents, but still missing it :)
DeleteThanks for reading!
The second pic of Melina and Matthew cuddling under the stars shows how she's feeling really well. I hope she can figure out what she wants from Matthew, or whether she really wants to be with him at all. She's young though and she has time to work it out.
ReplyDeleteI had 2 pictures of that moment, this one, and one where Melina closes her eyes, and ejoys the moment, but this one fitted the update much better.
DeleteThey'll be in college next round, and I'm going to wait and see how their wants go by then.
Thanks for reading!
I hope Melina can figure out what she wants and if it's not Matthew, that she will be brave enough to let him go, so he can find someone who does want to be with him. With college around the bend, it'd make sense if they called it off too. The movie theater and white castle look fun! I used to crave white castle like crazy til I moved where they exist, haven't ate there in ages. They aren't international though are they?
ReplyDeleteI'm going to wait untill they are in college, which is next round, and see how their wants go then. I will be sad to break them up, but if they don't roll wants for eacht other it might be time.
DeleteI didn't know White Castle was something that excisted for real!! It's not here in Belgium anyway, and I don't think it's anywhere in Europe either :)
Thanks for reading!